It’s funny how I look back to this time last year and see how different my life was. I was struggling feeling as if outside forces were in control of my life and I had to adapt to them. I felt like I had to become a person that was someone else in order to be loved and successful. Boy was I wrong!
Until now and looking back I now realized I have absolute control of my life, the outcome, how I decide I wanted to be treated by others and literally everything else in my life. I have manifested my dream job with my dream hours, my dream relationships, my soon to be redecorated dream house and yard. All by saying no to what wasn’t good for me and what I thought I should be. You can’t make room from your dreams and an amazing life while holding onto what is bad for you, you won’t change the bad stuff or people and feel better about your self-worth. You have to rise above it and “fake it till you make it” be it and you will become it. I thought I should be a person some family wanted me to be but while the real me was being killed to keep them “comfortable” I realized I love myself and nothing would have made them like me. As I stripped away the real me to make those happy and to do a job I didn’t like I realized my real and true relationships were dying because they love the REAL ME and that was slowly going away to make sure those mean people weren’t mean to me anymore.
Little secret….. it didn’t work …..nothing I did was right whether it was true me or someone that did stuff to make sure they were happy. I was robbing my kids of me without knowing it and for who? The people who don’t even care if they disrespect me or any part of me. For people who didn’t actually matter to me after all because my life without them is so much happier and better because I’m free to be me and who doesn’t like it can leave. Funny thing is when I put me and MY FAMILY first, they fell away. All that for people who easily say bye when I ask for the very least, respect from them in my own home even. Don’t let fear stop you from being happy. You deserve to break out of what others want of you. Be you because it’s beautiful and like I say all the time, you’ll find your people and I promise they are way better than anyone you leave behind who didn’t like you no matter what you did. We were made different because we are meant to share our uniqueness with the world. Balance each other out, give wisdom and love where others lack while they fill our cup with what we lack. We are who we are for a reason and we can’t dim our lights to make others who can’t find their own feel better about it. By all means be respectful and nice but know your limit and how you should be treated.
Boundaries are an amazing thing they aren’t there to train someone how to treat you, they are there saying, “I will not tolerate this treatment and if it continues, I will pull away, leave, or not speak to you anymore.” Don’t entertain their excuses, be strong in how you want the world to treat you, or it may swallow you whole. It is absolutely possible to be a loving person with a great heart and still love and care for yourself and the way others treat you. Think of it as an internal compass. Listen to it. Send love from a distance and let those people heal without bringing you down. If they love you, they will love you no matter what and if they don’t then you do not need that in your life!!!! Tap into your feminine energy. Be free.